Which is a shame, because October is my favorite month. It's so pretty.
We were sitting together, not saying anything for a while. I was too upset and depressed to talk. I had been crying a little. He asked, "What is going through your head?
My response surprised me.
Nothing you don't know. Just the normal stuff.
This is just normal me. The feelings I feel are becoming more and more "normal." The home that I live in is becoming my "normal" comfortable place of refuge. The thoughts that I fight everyday is just a "normal" everyday inner battle that I have within myself.
I want to defy this normal.
....... A couple of days ago, I felt impressed to read John 21. I thought that there was something that I was supposed to get out of it, that some scripture would pop right out at me. Maybe it would be a life changing phenomenon that I needed. But, nothing happened. It was strange. I've heard the story so many ti…